This is Halloween

I hold a huge grudge against my father for making me watch Halloween with him on Halloween night when I was seven years old.  He followed that with waking me up by standing outside my bedroom window staring with his eyes wide open or following me around singing or humming the many creepy songs from the movie.  I am doomed to ever feel safe anywhere because of this.

But for some reason I still love Halloween movies.  Maybe it’s because I excessively celebrate any holiday, and a lot of that involves getting in the spirit.  It all goes together for me in October– when the leaves are falling, the weather cools down, harvest colors everywhere – and movies about masked murderers or evil supernatural spirits.

The problem is I still do not feel safe in my home.  We have only lived there since April, so this being my first Halloween season there could be part of the reason.  Or it could be because I’m so easily spooked.  Either way, ever since we’ve turned off the A/C and opened the windows, I find myself very jumpy when I sleep.  Every morning last week I laid awake in bed half an hour before my alarm went off (our feline friend is a non-electronic alarm clock that never quite gets the time right) swearing that I could hear noises coming from my kitchen.  The fridge knocks…or animals outside are stirring.  But every morning I convince myself over and over again that a burglar turned masked murderer is in the house, and my bed is the only safe place.  Like I am little kid…and can’t step off the bed because the floor is lava…only in this situation, the floor is a free-for-all to get stabbed to death by Michael Myers.  We have mirrors on a wall in the living room that I can see from the bed, so I sit and stare at them waiting to see something move.  A few times last week I stared for so long that I actually did start to see things move, but realized that I just hadn’t blinked in three minutes so I was getting a little delusional.  

I watched all three Scream movies this weekend.  I love Scream.  I could watch them all over and over again.  And then I watched Paranormal Activity 4...I did not see Paranormal Activity 4 so I was surprised they even made this many of them.  Last night while I attempted to sleep, thoughts of evil Katie snapping the neck of an unknowing teenage boy were in my head.  Neither Ryan nor I slept well last night, constantly jumping awake and hearing noises.  I am convinced Katie was in the house, for Night #1.  If you remember the movies you know there is a lot of slow buildup until she makes her final attacks.  Hopefully I still am updating this blog in a few weeks.  Only time will tell.